{"id":1573,"date":"2018-04-25T10:00:42","date_gmt":"2018-04-25T07:00:42","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/blog.annebebekkulubu.com\/?p=1573"},"modified":"2018-04-25T10:42:14","modified_gmt":"2018-04-25T07:42:14","slug":"calisan-annenin-vicdan-azabi","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/annebebekkulubu.com\/blog\/calisan-annenin-vicdan-azabi\/","title":{"rendered":"\u00c7al\u0131\u015fan annenin vicdan azab\u0131"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Ben eski ben olsam (yazar burada <strong>\u201c\u015fimdiki ben olmazd\u0131m\u201d<\/strong> diye feylesofik bir giri\u015f yapmak istemi\u015ftir) yani bundan bir 10 y\u0131l \u00f6nce, \u00e7ocuk do\u011furmak konusundaki fikrim<strong> \u201cnever, ever\u201d<\/strong>ken,<strong> \u201cYok can\u0131m herkes \u00fcremek zorunda de\u011fil, hatta \u00fcremek ehliyete ba\u011flanmal\u0131\u201d<\/strong> ve <strong>\u201cB\u00f6yle bir d\u00fcnyaya \u00e7ocuk getirilir mi yeaa?\u201d<\/strong> diye ahkam kesip, \u00e7evremdeki ebeveynlerin kucaklar\u0131nda avaz ava ba\u011f\u0131ran bebeleriyle, s\u0131tk\u0131lar\u0131 s\u0131yr\u0131lm\u0131\u015f gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrken \u0131srarla<strong> \u201cAy siz de mutlaka \u00e7ocuk yapmal\u0131s\u0131n\u0131z, d\u00fcnyan\u0131n ennn g\u00fczel duygusu bu\u201d<\/strong> s\u00f6ylemlerini, i\u00e7ten i\u00e7e <strong>\u201cbiz yand\u0131k, siz de yan\u0131n mutlaka\u201d<\/strong> diye anlarken ve dahi <strong>\u201cBen \u00e7ocuk yapacak olsam, en de\u011ferli varl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 hayatta bir ba\u015fkas\u0131n\u0131n eline b\u0131rakmam,\u00a0 madem yapt\u0131n otur ba\u015f\u0131nda b\u00fcy\u00fct\u201d<\/strong> diye a\u011fz\u0131m\u0131 yaya yaya hari\u00e7ten gazel okurdum. Ne pis bir insanm\u0131\u015f\u0131m ben yahu.<\/p>\n<p>Gevezelikten m\u00fctevellit, girizgah\u0131 o kadar uzun tutunca mevzunun \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc ka\u00e7\u0131r\u0131yorum iki seferdir. \u00c7ocu\u011funa iyi bir gelecek haz\u0131rlayabilmek ile \u015fimdi \u00e7ocu\u011fu ile birlikte iyi vakit ge\u00e7irebilmek aras\u0131nda s\u0131k\u0131\u015f\u0131p kalm\u0131\u015f, mevcut az zamanlar\u0131n\u0131 ne kadar iyi ge\u00e7irirse ge\u00e7irsin, daha fazla iyi zaman ge\u00e7irmeliyiz diye vicdan azab\u0131ndan kendini paralayan kad\u0131na<strong> \u201c\u00e7al\u0131\u015fan anne\u201d<\/strong> denir. Az zaman\u0131 daha iyi ge\u00e7irme \u00e7abas\u0131yla hafta sonu planlar\u0131, hafta i\u00e7i ak\u015fam planlar\u0131, ay \u015furaya da g\u00f6t\u00fcreyim, burada da e\u011flenelim, foto\u011fraflar\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fcn m\u00fc \u015fekerim, falancalar \u00e7ocu\u011fuyla \u015f\u00f6yle bir yere gitmi\u015f pek e\u011flenmi\u015f, biz de mutlaka gidelimler, ki bunlar\u0131n hepsini ben de yap\u0131yorum, zarfa tak\u0131l\u0131p mazrufu ka\u00e7\u0131r\u0131yormu\u015fuz gibi geliyor bazen. \u0130\u00e7imizde <strong>\u201cEvlad\u0131nla yeterince vakit ge\u00e7irememek\u201d<\/strong> isimli kocaman a\u00e7 bir vicdan azab\u0131 canavar\u0131 var, bizim t\u00fcrl\u00fc atraksiyonlar ile kuzumuzun y\u00fcz\u00fcnde g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fcz her tebess\u00fcm, o canavar\u0131 bir nebze doyuruyor. Az\u0131c\u0131k i\u00e7iniz rahat ediyor ama sonra fark ediyorsunuz ki o canavar hep a\u00e7. Ben onun gelece\u011fi i\u00e7in \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorum, hem sonra uzmanlar (o uzmanlara da ayr\u0131 bir yaz\u0131da de\u011finece\u011fim) az ama nitelikli vakit ge\u00e7irmek daha \u00f6nemli vs vs diyerek kendinizi rahatlat\u0131yorsunuz. Evde kalsan\u0131z i\u015f hayat\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 \u00f6zleyip, ama benim kariyerim diyorsunuz, i\u015fte olsan\u0131z, hi\u00e7 tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z bir bak\u0131c\u0131 ya da kre\u015f \u00f6\u011fretmeninden o\u011flunuzun\/k\u0131z\u0131n\u0131z\u0131n ilklerini dinleyip o anlara \u015fahitlik edemiyorsunuz.<\/p>\n<p>\u00c7al\u0131\u015fmayan anne olmaksa bence \u00e7ok daha zor, b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcn evde mabad\u0131n\u0131z yer g\u00f6rmeden oradan oraya ko\u015fturup, g\u00fcn sonunda yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z onca i\u015f g\u00f6ze de g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u00fcyor. Yani \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmayan anne arkada\u015flar\u0131m \u00f6yle anlat\u0131yor, o k\u0131s\u0131m benim \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m yer oldu\u011fu i\u00e7in bilemiyorum. Sonu\u00e7ta ortak noktam\u0131z, mabad\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n yer g\u00f6rememesi<\/p>\n<p>Bu kadar b\u0131d\u0131rdand\u0131ktan sonra anal\u0131k zor \u015fey vesselam diye konuyu ba\u011flay\u0131p, Allah kimseyi evlats\u0131z da i\u015fsiz de b\u0131rakmas\u0131n diye de son noktay\u0131 koyar\u0131m.<\/p>\n<p><strong>Ps:<\/strong> Yukar\u0131daki foto\u011fraf, i\u015f i\u00e7in \u015fehir d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda 2 g\u00fcn ge\u00e7irdikten sonra <strong>#KeremEfendi<\/strong> \u2018nin beni sahadaki etkinlikte ziyarete geldi\u011fi andan. (\u0130\u015fte o can\u0131m annecim deyip sar\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131 an var ya, ger\u00e7ekten paha bi\u00e7ilemez, d\u00fcnyan\u0131n enn g\u00fczel duygusu bu, siz de mutlaka hemencik \u00e7ocuk yap\u0131n)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Ben eski ben olsam (yazar burada \u201c\u015fimdiki ben olmazd\u0131m\u201d diye feylesofik bir giri\u015f yapmak istemi\u015ftir) yani bundan bir 10 y\u0131l \u00f6nce, \u00e7ocuk do\u011furmak konusundaki fikrim \u201cnever, ever\u201dken, \u201cYok can\u0131m herkes \u00fcremek zorunda de\u011fil, hatta \u00fcremek ehliyete ba\u011flanmal\u0131\u201d ve \u201cB\u00f6yle bir d\u00fcnyaya \u00e7ocuk getirilir mi yeaa?\u201d diye ahkam kesip, \u00e7evremdeki ebeveynlerin kucaklar\u0131nda avaz ava ba\u011f\u0131ran bebeleriyle, [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":5,"featured_media":1590,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[6],"tags":[305,628,634,1006],"class_list":{"0":"post-1573","1":"post","2":"type-post","3":"status-publish","4":"format-standard","5":"has-post-thumbnail","7":"category-bebek","8":"tag-anne-ve-bebek","9":"tag-anne-ve-cocuk","10":"tag-calisan-anne","11":"tag-calisan-anne-olmak"},"jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/annebebekkulubu.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/04\/esra-alagoz-yarislar-1.jpg?fit=1000%2C923&ssl=1","jetpack-related-posts":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/annebebekkulubu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1573","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/annebebekkulubu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/annebebekkulubu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/annebebekkulubu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/5"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/annebebekkulubu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1573"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/annebebekkulubu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1573\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/annebebekkulubu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/1590"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/annebebekkulubu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1573"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/annebebekkulubu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1573"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/annebebekkulubu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1573"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}